to all my friends that left:

hey there, you were here with me from the very beginning, we joked around, poured our hearts out and talked, encouraged each other, compliment each other. you were here, every step of the way. i reminisce the times when things were way easier, when things were less complicated, when we could really enjoy ourselves and proudly call ourselves potterheads. you were there when i needed you, always there, guiding me to take the right path, to tell me to ignore haters and love myself more.

i took your advice, and grew as a person, as a writer, as a friend, as a listener. I am grateful to have met you, I can really say that you are someone who will brighten up my day, no matter how my day had gone. you knew how to console me and make me feel better.

we approached each other due to similar interests, or pure coincidence. you were someone I could count on even when things got tough.

i am sorry, sorry for not being able to be there for you when things got tough for you. maybe, just maybe, if I could be here more, listen to your problems and sort them out for you, you may be still here? I miss you, I miss you, really. I miss your presence on hpff, when I realised I would never see your stories again on my feed, my heart dropped, your stories always appeared on my feed and I enjoyed reading them so much. some even mentioned me as one of your close friends and my heart always soared reading those stories and posts.

you left, with just that post. just like that, I felt as though my whole world was crumbling down. you were one of the few friends I actually trusted here and really enjoyed spending time with. I wanted to leave too, but I remembered my other friends, who are counting on me to stay here and I decided to stay.

how, and why, why did you just leave without giving me further notice, you just make a post saying “I’m leaving,, I cannot stand it here anymore” if you had told me your intention to leave, I could probably help you sort out what was going on. some did not even make a post, they left suddenly, with no notice at all.

before I knew it, their account got deleted. seeing that, my heart really breaks, knowing that the chance of me seeing or talking to you again is nonexistent. I miss you, so, so, much, if you are still stalking my account, maybe dm me on hangouts or discord? please? I really want to have one long conversation with you before parting ways.

to chole (aka stella):

chole. you were definitely one of my closest friends on here. you left right after the sara drama happened. do you know how worried i was? i thought you had hurt yourself with shock over what had happened. you finally emailed me a few days later to announce your departure from hpff. i felt crushed that you were leaving. we started to email regularly everyday, but a few months later, you disappeared. your email doesn’t work anymore. i felt the most empty i had ever been. i really want to talk to you, one last time, if that‘s possible? please? i really miss you and value you as a friend, as a sister.

to edith:

edith, stella, and me. me, stella, and edith. we were the perfect trio. you were my telugu twin, my ranting buddy, and one of my best friends. i really miss you so much. you weren’t even allowed to have an email, the only chance of contacting you would be wattpad. but you left wattpad too, with no explanation. i really, really want to talk to you again. you were my comfort and you don’t know how much i love you as a friend. can you come back if it’s possible? i miss you so much, you don’t even know.

to bri (bookpanda12):

bri. you were the first person i talked to on here. how could i say goodbye? you left, just like that, with that one post. almost one year of hpff, gone just like that. when i saw your post, i was devastated. i never thought you would leave. you didn’t even leave any social media so i could talk to you again. my chances of ever talking to you again are very low. if you somehow see this, could you please email me or something? you don’t know how much i miss you.

to you, who’s reading this:

please don’t leave. this wasn’t even half of my friends who left. i feel so empty without you guys, i don’t think i could live. even if you do leave, could you keep in touch with me? please? for me?