Read it or not but I need to rant somewhere

I’m not entirely sure what my motivation behind starting this was, but I guess I needed somewhere to rant. Or talk. Or something. I don’t even know what I’m doing here. Anyways, the past few years have been hard for me. And the past few months have been the hardest of it all.

I have been struggling for a while with both my mental and physical health. Recently, I’ve come to realize that there’s others out there that have been struggling too. I guess it helps me not feel so alone. My best friend recently opened up to me and shared that she’s been going through some things and we’ve been trying to help each other through it. And to anyone else who's struggling, please know you aren't alone.

I realize that it’s kind of a hard concept to grasp, especially when comparing our lives to one another’s. And that lonely feeling is completely awful. Sometimes I still do feel alone. Because not everyone is in the same boat. We’re not even in the same storm. I’m not trying to seem pessimistic or cynical, but that feeling is real. And it’s dark and cold and numb and empty. Nobody should have to feel like they’re the only one that feels that way.

I have an uncommon disease type thing, called Complex Regional Pain Syndrome or CRPS. It basically is constant pain in my hands, feet, knees and other joints. I've had it for quite a while, and I feel very alone in it because I don't know a single other soul who has it. And sometimes, I have to miss out on things I love because I'm in too much pain to even do anything. I've found refuge within books and that's when I stumbled upon Harry Potter. I devoured the books within days and ever since then, Hogwarts truly has been my home even if I'm not always able to find refuge there as much as I used to. Since then, I've found other books that have been my hideaway from the world.

And my sister is getting remarried soon, my brother is moving out, and so many other things that I'm not comfortable sharing, even though you all are some of the most amazing friends I've ever had. I can't thank you enough for that.

Because it’s getting late, I’m going to call it a night. Thank you so much for reading my rant and know that you are helping me tremendously. Sorry for the depressing tone of things, but it really helps me. A lot. Feel free to rant to me anytime.

Again, so sorry for this. Love you all!!!!!!

Goodnight,

Sophieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee